so now I got a PR. permament resident of UK. Iam happy .NRI am I a non resident Indian .techinically i know it is rite but iam not able to accept the fact.it is like getting married ur happy to be part of new family but doesnt like to be out of my own family.ya nobody says iam not a Indian or u r not a part of ur mother's family.it is not a rule that u sud b only on one side.but nobody can ride two horses.eventually we choose any one of the horses.
I choose to be a Indian residing in India.well mainly bcos the family is there and iam used to there.when i say "used to" what do i mean....all people being friendly to me, nobody looking down on me,being a somebody there.
but guess wat i complain most about me living in India....ahha u cant do watever u want bcos somebody is alwaz judging u.u cant try out new stuffs bcos there is already a set of rules.for example i cant xperience waitressing or teaching a nursery .(i havent done all this here also .y? constraints r there).all these r due to being a somebdy there.
i have the freedom and opportunity here but not resources to support .so may b my crazy(i say so bcos many think so,iam voluntarily helping a toddler grp once in a week for just 2 hrs which i really njoi.all the english say thats great(but dunno wat they actually think) all my indian peers say thats crazy well didnt tell on face but gives that luk) adventures r not possible anywhere.
so iam concluding that ill rather go back to India n be that somebdy n face all associated problems and b happy there than staying n njoing this freedom but going nowhere in life.
well this how i wud compare.... singing all to u thinking nbdy is listening ,walking in evening on a park full of grass n beautiful flowers n birds nbdy cares where u go & nothing to do but walk...... is living in UK.
singing with a group of friends or my sisters when there is power cut on top of the voice n ur neighbours not complaining ,walking on road where ur granny watches u till i reach the corner of the street just for her satisfaction atleast iam safe till hers eyes cud reach ................is living in India.
well i guess after 4 years of singing alone i can do two more but my hearts yearns for an applause.
